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This blog is an experiment and experience in the world of my mind and soul. It is not literature and it is not perfect. It is rich and it is poor. It is playful and deep. It is who I am, it is my journey. Thank you for stopping by.







Friday, September 19, 2025

The things I learned to save

In the Romania of my childhood, nothing was thrown away too quickly, especially hope.

We kept dried bread because it could be softened in tea or, on better days, milk, and turned into a meal. We kept wrapping paper because it could be folded carefully and used again several more times. Why throw it away, really? Perfectly good paper.

We kept old clothes too. Clothes did not become old; children simply grew. A waistband could be let out. Sleeves adjusted. A dress worn one more winter.

We kept letters, notebooks, books, ribbons, buttons in old tins, jars that once held something else. We kept things because things had value, and because replacing them was never guaranteed.

We kept our families close because you never quite knew how long people would remain beside you. Also, despite everything, we genuinely liked each other. Most of the time.

And quietly, stubbornly, we kept dreams alive.

We kept hope present.

We kept wishes.

I still do...

Tuesday, August 12, 2025

Why?

 I have a chest of drawers in my head. 

The other day, I opened a few that I haven't touched in years. 

Why, you ask? 

I missed the smell of old. Old books, old walls, old streets, and old leaves. 

I opened them, and now my hands are coated with the dust of time past. I don't want to wash my hands. I want to sleep through the night with my memories of old paths I traveled. 

Today, I woke up and went to the drawers in my head. I knew exactly which drawer I need to open. 

It's stuck. That drawer, out of all of them, is stuck. 

Why? Why that one? Why now? 

Is it because of the dust on my hands? 

Is it because of the dreams I had? 

Is it because of forgetting the other drawers? 

I need some WD-40, please. 

Wednesday, February 26, 2025

The choice

 Watching a drop of rain on my window

Rainbows form and float away

With life

and smiles and song.

Will they come back? Regrow in the next drop? Or the next? 


I don't seem to know the world outside the rain drop on my window.

I move my head and the drop looks larger

I lose the rainbows but I gain space.

And some of the smiles come back

And a melody. Quiet.

Rainbows or space? That one drop or another? Rain or sunshine?


The choice is mine.