Choices

People make choices every second. How tiring it is to watch them fight the flow of life. We get to crossroads and we feel we have to choose on of the roads. We could just close our eyes and feel our way through. But we don’t. We think and analyze, we take few steps one way, we think again, we go back to the crossroads, we talk to other people who are there in the same time with us. Sometimes, we create a committee. We can think more and analyze better like that. We will utilize all of our resources to think. We don’t feel. No, we want to make the best LOGICAL choice. People who allow themselves to feel are flakes. We are serious. We think.

We choose. We go on and it doesn’t feel right. So, instead of turning back and trying to get to the other road as soon as we can, while we still know the way back, we keep going. We keep going on the wrong road and we think. We think of all the way we can make this road be the good road. We also analyze our original thinking, so we can understand where the mistake was, so we can learn and never repeat it. Never. We look around and we ask our road companions: “How are you? Are you happy with your choice?” They lie and say: “Yes”. To recognize their mistake would make the look week. So you go on and think and rationalize yourself out of the pain of knowing you made a mistake.

When you get to another crossroad you are relieved and start the thinking process knowing that you have learned from your previous choice. Now we are not going to get it wrong. We’ve already been here. We are older and wiser, now we know to make choices. We still don’t feel, that’s still not smart! We think some more. By now we are tired, but we just know we have to make the right choice. A voice tells us: “This doesn’t FEEL good.” We run away in panic because we are not supposed to feel. Think. Think. Think.

This was a close one…